Friendships since I was 10 years old

I've recently turned 29 last month! And what was the nicest surprise was my childhood friends surprising me when a birthday cake and celebrating it with me! I feel so grateful to still be in touch with them.. especially with Sophie, the other Asian in the picture because I've actually known her since I was 3 years old and In nursery school! I think as I've gotten older, I really do cherish my memories and maintaining good relationship in my life.. I really don't like carrying grudges to my grave, what's the point when the only person that's suffering the most is yourself! And now my daughter has lots of aunties to look out for her and beat up mean kids! 😂

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Belive in yourself

A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid 

of the branch breaking because her trust is not in the branch,

but in her own wings to fly...

No other name!

Names are pregnant with purpose!! 

 and we gather under no other name!!!

History was made, the world-renowned Times Square in NYC was taken over to make a statement...There is ‪#‎NoOtherName‬ but JESUS!

3 things...

They say that a person only truely needs 3 things to be happy in this world...

Someone to love

Something to do

Something to hope for

However big or small your problems are...

just remember the world is so big..

It's soo beautiful..

And dispite you and me being so small..

No problem is too small for God...

His love is unending... 

And he care about the big and small things in our lives...

Have some faith.. 

That the muddy waters will clear...

And within it.. something beautiful will grow out of it..

You are never alone in this world...

He will never give you anything that challenges you that he knows you cannot handle..

Love snow x

You're there in the dark of the night..

While holding the sun and it's light...

Through the triumphs and trials alike

There's no one beside you...

Your voice calls the stars by their names.. 

You whisper them all to their place...

To testify of your wonder and praise..

Both now and forever...

Driven to your dreams..

Elllooooo!! It's been awhile!!

LOL i looked at my last post and WOOOWWW did it sound depressing!! I should explain it abit actually... Last yr October, i started back at uni, my final year of studies and this was one of my biggest fears because i have never done it before... for 5 years, i have feared this moment in my life because in my degree, 3rd year is the only year that actually counts towards what up end up with as your final grade... I have always been an AIM HIGH or don't do it at all sort of person.. If i know i cannot achieve something to the best because i am not ready or prepared for it, then i would rather not begin and feel like a failure.. yep, typical perfectionist!! :/

So in October 2013, i had just finished backpacking Asia and i had to start writing my dissertation... Academic writing is not something i am naturally good at because i am dyslexic, my thoughts aren't easily translated onto paper if i can't write the way i think. Like it would take me a whole paragraph or two to get my point across but it should have only taken 1 or 2 sentences. I was pretty down and depressed about this piece of writing because  i had decided to choose a subject i have a passion for- homelessness.. but as a design project and area to write about, it is so incredibly complex and challenging that my tutor told me that i have probably picked one of the hardest things to do.. Which obviously made me panic and worry.. :( I handed in my draft late and when i did hand it in, she was actually concerned... My problem was that i got too emotionally attached to the homeless, i wasn't being objective enough.. I remember feeling like quitting, giving up, pushing people away and i even fell out with my best friend because i didn't need another person telling me why i handed my work late when i already felt like crap!

However i didn't give up, i had minimal support from my mentor and my sister and managed to write a very good dissertation. Surprisingly, i got an A- for it! :D probably my proudest achievement in academia.. since i consider writing my biggest flaw!

Along with the essay, i had to start the design project at the same time, my product had to answer my hypothesis form my dissertation so again- it was a product designed for the homeless.. fast forward to February 2014 for me... :p This was also the most difficult project i have ever done in my life. I had to learn skills i never had before and i was told that it was nearly impossible and unlikely that i could finish this project in a well finished and complete final product... Sweat and tears and alot of panic and all-nighters later, i handed in, presented my work and i ended up also getting an amazing grade for that project!! I was so surprised and unbelievably HAPPPYYYY!!!

I now an at the last leg of my degree.. the client project.. I have about a month and a half left to finish it... and just looking back at my journey- the highs and the ridiculous amount of lows... it does give me some confidence that i can overcome my struggles now with my current work.. I have realllly struggled with this one because its not only the work, but the people around me that has affected how i have performed... :( I'm the kinda of person who doesn't like to be hated on or upset people and not care.. i care abit too much... and one of my friends at uni was envious of my grades that he showed it and it bugged me.. made me lose motivation to go into class, and avoid talking to people incase i got more haters.. I'm kinda over it now.. as i did have 1 good friend who has been supportive in my class.. and i think you either don't need anyone to do that and be even more driven on your own goals, or just that one person who believes in you is enough :)

People do describe me as/get the impression that i am very driven and I've got thing under control.. and it is flattering but definitely not always the case... I have terrible management skills, I'm also pretty unreliable and flaky!! But i can be very very driven... I feel like i am more so now than i was 3 hours ago just because i am reflecting back onto my original purpose for doing it and what it can lead to contributing towards my dreams..  Maybe take a moment to pause and think about your dreams.. your purpose and the times you struggled like i did, but got back up and exceeded everyone's expectations.

'Nothing you do is impossible...The very word itself tells you that "I'm-Possible"

Love snow x

Learning what is to come if your think too much...

Sometimes life feels meaningless... Sometimes it's even hard just to wake up and make life happen.. And sometimes.. we just can't explain why we feel the way we do... but we do... Even though you know the answers to the resolve them.. the things you need to do... the good and the bad outcomes of doing or not doing them.... it is just your mind and body not coordinating to set things right... and sometimes..i just wonder why....

I feel like when i think too much about things.. this some how happens... I just forget what it means to live my life...to be thankfully.. to appreciate what i have... to make the most of everyday and stop trying to shorten it by not having dreams...

Adventure Time!!!

Ello readers! It's been awhile!! :) The last you heard from me was that i was swamped with studied to even continue blogging daily like i used to.. and.. it hasn't changed lol! Well after i went to italy to visit loads of design studios and factories but also have fun and enjoy florence and rome too, i did my last term for the year and actually did quite well for my expectations! I ended the year on a high note...

Then during july, august and september, i decided to take 3 months off work ( for those who don't know, i'm a part time receptionist at virgin) to work in design and do some traveliling to get inspired for my final dissertation topic!

So i worked in concert halls and arenas, building stage and making props for the events.. i would staple stuff till my hands blistered, feet blistered from walking.. painting, drilling, sanding, glue gun burns, u name it.. it was hard work! but i did enjoy it alot! i had a good team with me :)

then came to travelling, i decided to travel south east asia and i am sooo glad i did! :) I had the most amazing experiences, the most amazing people and food, cultures and stories!! i made alot of friends that i can call for life... and my very own adventure time buddy for life!! we always had the best times!! i can cross off alot of things on my bucket list just because of this summer! :)

I would reccommend to anyone to go to cambodia, vietnam, laos and thailand!! it will be the most amaazing thing u ever did for yourself. :p

The Team Talk!

So today i went to church and i was really inspired by the talk given by Ben.. hes not a pastor or anything, just someone who is really passionate about God! And he was talking about recieving a team talk just before you go out into the game, the pitch, the world...  Like when you team leader gives you encouraging words and you get all pumped up to do your best when you break huddle! lol... he talk was sooo inspirational!! I loved it sooo much!! I won't go into it too much, because alot was based on scripture and examples lead by God talking to Joshua, Jesus talking to his diciples,  Paul speaking to the Ephesians... but he was pretty much telling us that if you want to make a difference in the world, what are you waiting for..why wait for others to do it... Be the movement and lead by being the example to everyone else!! I am pretty much the only Christian at my workplace.. in uni... i am 1 of 2 in my class of 90 odd people.. ( thank God i found a sister inmy class now... it has made life alot nicer knowing someone understands my way of life!) but i guess i am not making much of a movement in terms of preaching etc... I kinda don't want to be some bible basher to people because when i wasn't a christian.. i really hated those people lol!! But in my day to day life... there are things that i can do more to show that i am a child of God... to be a reflection of Christ.. Just things like serve others in your work, school and home life... show them what a real christian is suppose to be like when you life is filled with the love of the king of kings... :)

I really do try to be a nice person in general... and much of the time, i do it without realising... Sure i get taken advantaged of... and yeah people treat me bad because im too nice... but im finding the balance... i might justify cutting people out my life if after given a year, they still haven't changed their ways or have apologised or had any reflection or remorse... need i waste my energy on people like that... they drain me lol!!

So yeah.. this is my mini team talk... sharing is caring.... be the best that u can be and show the world how truely awesome you can be towards mankind.. and if ur actually some selfish, mean and bitter and negative bastard person naturally... CHANGE! That is all.

Happy Spring!

I know i look young... i kinda do it to myself  without realising because thats how i feel comfortable inside... I like wearing mens sweaters because they are loose and comfortable... it does make me look like a tramp but i'm a student..i don't really care anymore lol!  I do loveeeeeeeee this snap back though... it was my friends and he gave it to me as a birthday gift about 2 years ago because i kept trying to steal it!! :p I don't really know what happened to him... we were always good friends so maybe when he got a girlfriend..he cut me out... mehh... story of my life..i expect it when i have dudes as friends! moving on :)

Because its the start of spring, i wanted to take a moment to remind you all of new beginnings... Spring is when the snow melts, the flowers start to bloom.. the trees grow back their leaves and its warmer and sunnier again!! and we get more day light... ahhhhh.. isn't it just nice?!!

So no its not a the beginning of the year but u can still start a new habit only because the new life around us and sunlight just makes us more happy!! Starting a new fitness regime... well u can run outside...its not too cold anymore...new colours to your wardrobe, new room furniture and clean your room out of junk...new make up, new accessories.. new hair colour... ( hmmm should i change my hair colour..or at least get a hair cuttt!!!??) or it could be start a new beginning with a friendship or a relationship... if you have had enough time to mull over it and both parties are better than who they were before you fell out/broke up... why ot give it a try? Orrrr... get yourself out on the dating scene and try something new!!! speed dating? getting set up? go to a bar... orr sign up to a dating website!! HEY DON'T JUDGE lol.. i did it once! :p

Happy spring people!!

Milano... Firenze and Venice... Here i come..

I going to ITALY next week!! I am soooo excited!!! Its a trip organised by my school... we will be in milan for a week visiting the various design studios we all so admire in the world. Some of the biggest icons of design originated from Milan such as Lambohgini, Masaratti, Beretta, Alessi, Balatti etc and its an honor to get to see them on the inside for the first time in my life! I actually am pretty lucky, i entered a competition to get some of the costs for the trip funded and i was one of the winners! so its even better! :) After Milan, me and some of my friends will be going to visit Firenze and Venice also... just to make the most of this beautiful country... I have been to italy before.. and it was so lovely i know i will love every moment of it! The best part is that now... I loveeeeeee coffeee!! I've become quite a connoisseur about coffee too lol... so i can't wait to enjoy the coffee in italy... ahh the little things in life can make us so joyful.. amazing coffee!! :)

I'm going to donate blood!

 sharing is caring right?? :)

So my awesome friend Chris Espin convinced me to go donate a pint or so of my blood... and honestly, i have mulling over it for months and he was gonna do it regardless but he finally convinced me to do it with him!! I'm really scared lol!! Because i'm really scared of needles and i think i might feel weak and pass out but i wanna do this to help others... I mean maybe i can help save lives this way... But i'm planning on doing it after i've finished using my brain for the term.. so next friday is last day of term...i will go donate that day!! i'm really scared but God give me strength and bravery ... would be my first time doing it..and hopefully i'll get over it and do it more regularly... but the thought still makes me dizzy lol!!!

Update/ Deadline over for the term!

helloooooo!!

After an intensive 2 months of project work, i finally submitted it and got to sleep like normal hours!!! but its weird, i haven't gotten back to normal.. its been two months of working day and night and staying awake as much as i can just to do my best in this project... and even then i don't think i actually did my best... the best ideas come to me towards the end of the project so rush rush rush as usual!! I am just so happy to have finished... i didn't do the project to the extent that i aimed to for myself but apparently i hid it well and it wasn't too noticeable during my presentation of the project!! I can probably say that i definitely didn't do as well as i did in my last two projects but honestly this was a much harder, technical project that i challenged myself with so as long as i pass and don't have to fail... i'm happy!! ( well... not really.. i aim high so nothing lower than a B then i'm really happy lol! if i did get lower than a B, i will work harder next term for sure!)

So what am i doing now? I really lack a proper social life!! Like i remember an ex boyfriend never having time because of his studies and its so true!! Especially if you are not dragging your feet in this course and actually want to do your best... I literally have no time for a relationship even if it presented itself to me.. just the wrong timing for my lifestyle now... I remember back when i really did mess up with my studies because of relationships and it just proves to me now its not worth the hassle, i don't have enough skills to balance even my good friendships now :( since i submitted my major project, i've only met up 1 friend, spent a whole day at church, went to one gathering and one sleepover! and even through all that i'm still doing assignment work and worrying about what i need to complete... workaholic much right??

OMG SOOO TIRED!!! zzzzzzzz goodnight beautiful people xxx

Glorious ruins

I'll walk through the fire...
with my head lifted high...
and my spirit revived in your story...
I'll look to the cross...
as my failure is lost...
in the light of your glorious reign...

Let the ruins come to life...
In the beauty of Your name...
Rising up from the ashes...
God forever You reign...
And my soul will find refuge..
In the shadow of Your wings...
I will love You forever...
And forever I'll sing...

Sometimes i can get so caught up in the problems of the world..the problems of people and what they go through...where i try to help in a person of the world way..give what i can give, advise on what i can advise and get involved in ways i can to just help others... but it pulls me away from God lately... just drains my spirit because these are all people who don't believe God is the answer to everything..but that is really what i believe... my answer for your problems is to pray for you..pray about it..ask God for help please... but to hide this part of me...to not give praise where its meant to be given...makes me withdraw and become depleted of my spiritual food... i went to my church today... this particular song touched me.. I wish you all knew how much he loves you... 

Snow x