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Ugly personality!

This literally happened yesterday and i just wanted to vent writing it out, maybe some of you experienced something simular??
A friend i've known for about 3 months now confessed that he had a crush on me but would have never acted on it because my friendship was more valuable... I was pretty shocked because he has a gf for yearsss and this all of sudden made me feel like backing off because i dont wanna be someones temptation or the cause of relationships ending... does that make me sound arrogant?? like do u get the impression that i think i could if i wanted to by me saying that?? because i honestly don't, i just take precautions to protect peoples feelings... So my reply was precisely something like that...that i can try to not feel weird about him and squash it like it didn't even happen and that i saw him as a brother...and i got the most ugliest personality out of his reply to that!! I made the guy feel rejected somehow, he was saying 'if i wanted ANYTHING to happen i wouldn't have told u about my gf' or the fact that he was fond of me! saying IF he was EVER single, he'd like to think he could date me! O_o eww its like i never seen someone defend themselves from telling me they like me...how are you gonna feel rejected just because i dont feel the same, dude you have a gf- aren't you proving that you did want me to feel something more than friendship??! and to top it off, i got one msg after another like it was angry n pissed off.. i got this message after i'd apologise for wording it wrong, i used a phase he taught me P**** Beggar (PB) but i only used in a jokey way, no need to go so harsh with the caps and all, all i wanted to say was i wasn't ok with knowing this information, i'll try not to act weird, i'll just pray for u and ur gf more? thats literally what i said.. i got a reply of ' and i would have you know that if i was a P.B!! i would be an amazing P.B to have around because im not that bad looking. YOU would be lucky!' O_O like wow that was ugly... that was arrogance to the max... needless to say, i have decided to cut that friend outta my life... i am sure he said it outta anger or it was to protect his pride...but i no longer want to be friends with someone who has shown his true colours of ugliness inside!! I believe if you hang out with the wrong friends, they can lead you on the wrong paths in life... 

I don't think i'm more beautiful than alota girls... In fact, i've always thought the opposite...low self esteem or whatever you wanna call it, i'm just learning to accept compliments because it used to make people upset when i didn't accept them... I just believe you should be grateful and humble in your life and gifts you have been blessed with...looks, money, job, family, partners, friendships-learn you be grateful for them all...even if some do end and change, at least it happened right? :)

wow i feel so much better, i forgot how blogging was like therapy to me!!

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