Teaching Nishy how to blog!

My student Rock lee Nishy and me as his teacher Guy sensei! :D

Hey everyone!! So i'm at a cafe with my friend NISHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! :D and he has asked for a favour to teach him how to blog... He said that he has a lot of things to share with the world and reckons blogging is a good platform to begin with!! I ( of course) agree because thats how i started! :D so without further all do.. this is the first example to show him! I not only teach this guy how to blog, i am very wise haha! I teach him how to read the signs of flirting (men and women!), how to get out of an arranged marriage and what food is the most tastiest in the world!
:D Great teacher i know! :p lol!

the art of asking powerful questions

“If I had an hour to solve a problem and my life depended on the solution, I would spend the first 55 minutes determining the proper question to ask, for once I know the proper ques- tion, I could solve the problem in less than five minutes.” —ALBERTEINSTEIN

Forgiveness

Have you ever not wanted to forgive someone because you judge them for what they have done or have done to you? I'm pretty sure many of us have been down that road before where to forgive is just too difficult because we just can't let it go... But hear me out, lemme let you in on this... 

those who are forgive much, love much... those who are forgiven little..love little...

What does that mean exactly... well its new to me too actually! Last sunday, i learnt the meaning of just that!! Picture this..

A guy owed £500 to a merchant. Another guy owed £5 to him. both were in a position where they cannot afford to pay him back. So the kind merchant cancelled the debt they owed,cleaning the slate for them. Now... who do you think was more grateful for this act of kindness? yeah.. it would probably be the guy with the bigger debt of £500 right...You understanding me yet..?? no?? :p listen... 

People who do us wrong... sometimes we think they don't deserve our forgiveness... they just don't deserve to feel relieved of that grudge we hold against them... maybe they hurt you bad..maybe they wronged someone you know... for what ever the reason... because their debt to you is greater than of someone whos done less...if you forgave them, their gratefulness is greater..their love will flourish...

 To forgive someone is a gift, it can really stir a person inside, it not only gives them rest, but also..it gives you rest...holding a grudge isn't easy right? i know that one for sure!!!!!

I think the reason why i'm writing this post today is because i've been reflecting upon my past and how there are still a couple of people that i have not yet forgiven for the wrongs they did to me... i firgured this much.. 'he/she wouldn't learn from his/her mistakes if i forgave them' they can only know the greatness of my hurt if they never recieve my forgiveness...how do you forgive when your heart isn't quite there yet.??.. 

Now its been a long time since these wrongs guys..and i don't even think much of it now... but i am aware..that my grudge still haunts them..its still is uncomfortable to live with.. and i think i've been thinking about it in the wrong way... Those with greater debts of wrong..learns from and has a higher sense of gratitude than those who did little to wrong me and gets forgiven...

Its easy to forgive someone of a white lie, but harder to forgive someone whos lied for a year about everything right??...but out of the two who seek forgiveness...the one who hurt you the most would recieve the greatest amount of gratitude and lesson from their mistakes...

It really twisted the way i think when i learnt this...still tryna get my head around it to be honest!! I'm putting it out there..maybe it wil stir you to forgive someone whos hurt you today...

Happy Mondays 

Love Snow x

University

it's about 2 weeks exactly that I'm studying at uni and yep I've kept it on the D low because I wasn't sure I'd successfully get in.. not that anyone is as happy as I am but I got in to a pretty prestigious institution and I'm so thankful to God for answering my prayers one after another!! :)

So what's it like being in 'school' again? probably the most awesome feeling ever!! uno I've studied most of my life.. and most of it was never for me..like I probably picked subjects I was good at but did I really wanna do it? being Asian, I did it for my parents, I felt like I owed them a good life and was purely motivated to please them with my A*'s and distinctions..but there was no satisfaction in the end...I mean I think I was brought up pretty well but honestly, I say 'screw to that way of thinking!' I don't know, I realized that after getting those top grades, I'd get put down for other things I wasn't good at I.e languages-I dropped out of Chinese school age 16 because never using the language and having to memorize the characters and do my GCSEs was too much for my slow brain to process!! I'm not saying if u live to serve your parents, that's a bad thing, but in my opinion, doing studies for your own ambition to further bigger and more global ambitions is probably more sustainable that the desperate hope of love and recognition from your folks!!

I see it this way... I've been pretty good and skilled in a lot of things I have learnt and experienced...however I think I'm pretty good at design and I haven't utilised my skills in this area to the potential it can grow...I had to step out of the continuous patterns in my life to really know what I want to do...so here I am! late night's at the library, not eating because I'm too busy, coffees after coffees and just that much more busier than usual! I have to say, first 2weeks have been pretty intensive! like I wanna do the activities n fun stuff but I've had no time! I've met some pretty awesome people tho..they make me laughhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! lol! so wish me luck.. let the good times roll..I'll keep y'all posted!
love snow x

yea the app sucks!!! can't reposition and align writing and rotate photos!! so basic yet it cant be done!! so i'll just try to blog the way i used to :)

Testing my Samsung blogging app!

Hey beautiful peoples! I'm gonna test my galaxy s3 n see if blogging is comfortable on this phone..

Check out the front camera (pic of me) and the back camera (flower)

Hello Hello!!

Hey guys and dollies!! it is very weird that i am back on my blog because i there are many times when i have started to write and then i delete the whole thing time and time again... i just don't like writing about myself... like... how did i even become like this? i love writingggg and in writing is where i express myself the best in!! I dunoo.... Its very weird!! But honestly..I'm back because i remember that the blog used to be about me... it then became a way you my readers to get inspired and get something out of it?? That i was no longer writing to remember events in mylife but it turned into a ' i learn as you learn sorta thing' lets see... this is the 2nd chapter of a girl named snow... :) watch this space :) 

If i had my life to live over...

"Of course, you can’t unfry an egg, but there is no law against thinking about it..

If I had my life to live over, I would try to make more mistakes.
I would relax. I know of very few things that I would take seriously.
I would go more places. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers.
I would eat more ice cream and less bran.
I would have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary troubles.
You see, I have been one of those fellows who live prudently and sanely, hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I have had my moments. But if I had it to do over again, I would have more of them – a lot more.
I never go anywhere without a thermometer, a gargle, a raincoat and a parachute.
If I had it to do over, I would travel lighter.
If I had my life to live over, I would pay less attention to people telling us we must learn Latin or History; otherwise we will be disgraced and ruined and flunked and failed.
I would seek out more teachers who inspire relaxation and fun.
If I had my life to live over, I would start barefooted a little earlier in the spring and stay that way a little later in the fall.
I would shoot more paper wads at my teachers.
I would keep later hours.
I’d have more sweethearts.
I would go to more circuses.
I would be carefree as long as I could, or at least until I got some care- instead of having my cares in advance.

I doubt, however, that I’ll do much damage with my creed.
The opposition is too strong.
There are too many serious people trying to get everybody else to be too darned serious.."

Paulo Coelho

He's one of my most loved writers.. because he writes so beautifully elegant...Get inspired and follow his blog http://www.paulocoelhoblog.com/

Rhythms of grace

your voice calls the stars by their name.. and you whispered them all to their place...to testify of your wonder and grace..both now and forever...

Unexpected Photoshoot!

Hey guys and dolliez, been awhle since i've done a new feed sorta post so here goes..

I've been so busy lately..just had a million things to sort out and take on, by the time i get home, im out like a baby! Hardly had a social life i'm tellin u, if im not working, im at church, if im not a doing either im training, sorting out design work n courses, chill time is makin time for my friends or guilty pleasure nerdy stuff like watchin anime n reading mangas n drawing! I'm also constantly on a budget (i make the same money a student makes because i get taxed so much its ridiculous!) so yea...boring right? lol.. i don't really care, im not bored of being boring, i like it when people at work think ima loser!!lol! :D

ANYWAYZ this loser (me!) got sent on a mission from work to help out another club whiles i was on shift, following orders, i went, thinking i was gonna go to help do work that i know... ermmm no... it was a photoshoot for an ad or something!! O_o i was like 'u gotta be kidding me right?!' i sooo didn't wanna take part, but it was a group photo thng so it didnt seem too bad.i was like an extra or something- anyways, i did it thinking i could hide at the back so noone can see my face but they sent me to the front because of the stupid fluorecent orange top they made me wear!! all pride gone...epic embarassment n stitch up i thought (cringe if i ever see myself on some wall or ad) >_< I did however get paid CASH for selling my rights to the images of myself..and it was quite alot so it weren't all that bad because i didn't expect it! :) i dont even wanna tell u guys what ad it was so that u never find it  and point and laugh lol! why do u think i don't do youtube videos?!! because im confident i'd look like an idiot lol!! :D

Ugly personality!

This literally happened yesterday and i just wanted to vent writing it out, maybe some of you experienced something simular??

A friend i've known for about 3 months now confessed that he had a crush on me but would have never acted on it because my friendship was more valuable... I was pretty shocked because he has a gf for yearsss and this all of sudden made me feel like backing off because i dont wanna be someones temptation or the cause of relationships ending... does that make me sound arrogant?? like do u get the impression that i think i could if i wanted to by me saying that?? because i honestly don't, i just take precautions to protect peoples feelings... So my reply was precisely something like that...that i can try to not feel weird about him and squash it like it didn't even happen and that i saw him as a brother...and i got the most ugliest personality out of his reply to that!! I made the guy feel rejected somehow, he was saying 'if i wanted ANYTHING to happen i wouldn't have told u about my gf' or the fact that he was fond of me! saying IF he was EVER single, he'd like to think he could date me! O_o eww its like i never seen someone defend themselves from telling me they like me...how are you gonna feel rejected just because i dont feel the same, dude you have a gf- aren't you proving that you did want me to feel something more than friendship??! and to top it off, i got one msg after another like it was angry n pissed off.. i got this message after i'd apologise for wording it wrong, i used a phase he taught me P**** Beggar (PB) but i only used in a jokey way, no need to go so harsh with the caps and all, all i wanted to say was i wasn't ok with knowing this information, i'll try not to act weird, i'll just pray for u and ur gf more? thats literally what i said.. i got a reply of ' and i would have you know that if i was a P.B!! i would be an amazing P.B to have around because im not that bad looking. YOU would be lucky!' O_O like wow that was ugly... that was arrogance to the max... needless to say, i have decided to cut that friend outta my life... i am sure he said it outta anger or it was to protect his pride...but i no longer want to be friends with someone who has shown his true colours of ugliness inside!! I believe if you hang out with the wrong friends, they can lead you on the wrong paths in life... 

I don't think i'm more beautiful than alota girls... In fact, i've always thought the opposite...low self esteem or whatever you wanna call it, i'm just learning to accept compliments because it used to make people upset when i didn't accept them... I just believe you should be grateful and humble in your life and gifts you have been blessed with...looks, money, job, family, partners, friendships-learn you be grateful for them all...even if some do end and change, at least it happened right? :)

wow i feel so much better, i forgot how blogging was like therapy to me!!

Scarf braid hair

I got alot of compliments about how i did my hair in the last couple of days so i thought i'd share how i did it because it was soooooo simple yet everyone kept asking how i did it! I'm really NOT a trend setter guys, i just wear whatever i feel comfortable in.. you just get a silk scarf ( i have loads of them because i just love collecting printed scarves whenever i see a beautiful one, i buy them from different countries to topshop and market stalls!)  knot it on to your hair and then just braid it into your hair as you would a normal braid! secure with a hairband and ur good to go! sound like really retarded instructions right? because it was that easy!

My hair has gotten really long so its easy to do if you have alot of length to work with..but if you don't, wrap it like a alice band first and then braid it in so the scarf has shorter ends! I sound like one of those youtube beauty gurus don't i? lol!! An easy hairdo thats acceptably 'hippy' in spring/summer! :p Hope this was useful dolliez! ( sorry for the poor quality pictures, my mac webcam has had its hey dayz and is ageing gracefully :p ) xxx

Me...an example?

I've been some sort of mentor to 2 of my co workers as of recently... One has left but insisted we stay friends outside of work and one i see about once a week... Its weird but they both look to me for guidance and help in their lives... in what way? well alot of people have tried to understand why  fasted for 50 days... why i don't entertain in gossip... why im reading scripture on my lunch breaks... why im not interested in male attention or why im just boring and alil not so 'normal' in their eyes... lol! Well.. they might think ima loser but i think im awesome haha!! :p

So one of my co workers has confided in me about the signs and the messages he has been getting to change his ways and come back into the fathers arms... but it has been difficult... he shared of his internal battles with me... he said to me today " i want to be more like you..." i was quite happy that in some way, i've quietly set an example of Christ's light and somehow have drawn him closer to others who want to know him the way i do... I said to him " I've not tried to change or force myself to be someone else... i've put my full trust and life in his hands.. what you see in me.. who you want to be more like isn't me... its just the reflection of Christ in me.." I shared my trials and weakest moments in my life when i made my decision to give my life to God with him to help him understand it wasn't smooth sailings for me either... that who i am now is still a constant process of Christ in me clarifying who i'm meant to be...more like him...

I'm sharing this because i'm kinda scared.. i don't know how to guide others when i've needed so much help from others to get me here in the first place... What i feel is that i'm not perfect... The responsibility of ones growth in faith is in his own will to do so...Is it a responsibility i can handle? what if i fall and they fall with me? I have see the positive impacts i've had on the people i am surrounded by daily but what do i do next if they want more??? I'm still so new to this, i'm kinda just worried that in my examples...and my efforts to help that i'm not strong enough to have others lean on me... I mean about a year n a half ago i was just as lost and confused in life as they are now...

Thinking about it now... i'm just being selfish for thinking about not lending my hand when they wanna experience what i have... It's the most amazing gift i've ever recieved... unconditional love and someone that never gives up or lets go of me... 

I don't like to force or impose my beliefs onto anyone because of my own experience with people who have tried to do that to me... i think its so important that people come to faith by freewill and with a childlike faith.. like i did... I'm gonna pray on it and give it my all.. if it is needed... 

(As i mentioned before, i know my posts have been quite god reflected recently... i aint bible bashing.. its mainly the chapter in my life right now :) i aint ashamed haterz!!! :p 

Just a quiet mind note i wanted to share... Love Snow x

My goat!

Hey dudes and dudettes! I haven't blogged in awhle mainly due to my preferance of writing in my personal journal now... I'd bore u all anyways if i put it all on here, it's mostly about my journey with God and how much i think i'm changing... so here a post about my GOAT! lol! 

his name is gary the goat! :)

anyone remember the movie 'Don't mess with the Zohan'? I loved it, the jokes in that movie was constantly reused when i used to work in the nutri centre! alot of them involving that Zohan stole my goat and that he was a very good goat! lol! well... i found my goat!! Sure he didn't listen to me when i told him to lead me to town and find us some food but he did climb a tree and pose for the picture! :p 

Awhile ago i mentioned i was gonna go on a lil vacation, well i went to an island i renamed ' the lemon tree island' there was just so many lemon trees there and it was an incredible land of peace for me and my friends... plus the wild life there was just a bonus! more animals than people lol! :p

Easter Sunday

Hey guys and dolliez!

It's been over a week since my last post rightttt?!! Ahh today has been amazing!! I've been working everyday this week and finally got my sunday to celebrate EASTER!! :D I was abit dissapointed i couldn't attend a mass on good friday because of work but hey... back to today!! :D I stayed with my cousin lastnight so we both woke up and had pancakes for breakfast... Now traditionally my fast should be over by now... I could have had an epic breakfast... but i decided from the beginning to follow the orthodox time frame of fasting, which is like a week longer.. and on top of that i did break my fast for one event of 3 days so i'm gonna make up for that also.. my ersonal fast will end 10days later, 18th of april :) I made pancake with just water n flour, no butter, milk or eggs..not needed :)

After spending the afternoon resting with my cousin, i later attended 2 easter services... OMGosh i totally didnt expect the production i watched at Hillsong!! It was a moving performace of singing, animations, acting, ballet and street dance, rapping, amazing solos and a choir all delivering the beauty story of Jesus's life in exchange for our forgiveness... It was stunning and really got to the heart of me... I wish you all could have seen it or that there was a video of the whole thing for ya'll to see!! :D After that service, i ran on to my home church HTB for a more traditional talk about the significance of this day... the birth of hope.. another lovely message i took in as i took my communion in rememberance of my lord :) 

As you guys can see, i really don't care about being judge by the way i talk about my love for Jesus anymore.. i used to care about what people thought...because i used to judge those who were like me now.. I'm really happy that i found everlasting love and life in him... :D

I went to the bookshop afterwards and got some books..headed home to actually eat (since i only had that pancake this morning!) and uno what guys, i was suppose to go raving tonight!! Like i got invited out, then by a few more to the same club... I was gonna go after i ate...Easter used to mean time off work and partying because there was no work the next day... but it means soo much more to me now... I didn't go out in the end because celebrating in the word and being happy over the greatest miracle in history of mankind was fulfilling... not that i wouldn't have liked to see some of my friend tonight but it wasn't a big deal...I used to hate letting people down so i'd go even if i didnt feel like it... but i didn't feel like that today... clubbing is just clubbing, i'd probably just get unwanted attention and get annoyed in my stilettos O_o (palm to ur face if u think i'm lame... i'm not into boys right now so i can hold out on the partying, i'm too in love with a man named Jesus Christ to care about society's views of me! :p)

Have a blessed easter awesome people!! xxx