FML

*CRIES FOR A FEW HOURS*

I went church to serve and do my part for the church today... when the service finished..i had discovered that someone has stolen my bag...

In that bag... was a load of stuff that made me cry because it was in someone else posession now whiles i was doing work to provide a warm service to the congregation... I kinda feel betrayed...but i dont think i should feel like that...but i'm so fustrated... Bad things happen to bad people.. Bad things happen to good people...

this is what i was stolen from me... :'(

Iphone 3gs

wesc headphones

wallet

bank cards

drivers license

oyster travelcard

gym membership

n.i card

cash

photos

nintendo ds lite and r4 card (:'(lost my saved files on final fantasy echos of time..FML!)

home keys

courtesy CAR keys

and my favourite lil things and memories all gone...
car had to be towed away...cards had to be canceled and phone had to blocked...but still...more money goes out to pay for the replacements like the car key and license... O_O
can i get a group curse towards that heartless person who did this?? yea i no...thats not good...yea i no things can be replaces...but some couldn't....

I just can't understand why this week has been so bad... and obviously i'm not on speaking terms with my parents, they cant possibly understand and be suportive, they'll just pick at me some more about how careless i am for letting someone steal my bag.... FML... give me a rock to crawl under and hybernate... i'm done with the test..leave me alone world...

Avoiding HOME!

I've been keep myself away and busy.. away from all the drama at home for the past 2 days... I've AKF (away from keyboard - thank Sheldon for that term!) for 2 days to keep updated here... I don't know why, seems like coming back to resolve the conflict that is my parents... is so not appealing..O_O I've stayed at 2 different peoples houses and just filled my day giving my time and help to their families... Gosh it makes me envy what more westernised families have... See i got so upset with the fight (yea puffy eyes and all the day after)i had with my mom (even if some may think its petty! >_<) i found myself reaching for freedom even just for a couple of nights... walks along the river at night...drinking tea to myself... sleeping for hours longer than usual... picking up a guitar and playing old melodies to myself again... lame i'd tried cheering myself up huh >_<...If i did any of that at home i'd get an earful again for just not doing anything constructive...

I went to a Othodox Christmas mass till midnight during my time away (besties an othodox) went shopping, went for coffee, shared breakfast around a table of people who really do love as i am... and love eachother as a family in so many ways i wish i grew up with... (my besties mom even checked my blood pressure and blood sugar levels just because she cares about me like her daughter..) I guess i should be greatful for everyone in my life..even my own family... they'll come around... I'll find out soon... i'm off to bed now... Leading my cafe team tomo morning at church and i'm short staffed so i gotta be up early making sure everyone gets their brunch on!!

goodnight guys and dollz... i hope you have a lovelier day or night than i!! ^_^
xxx

Difficult Parents...RANT!!

I have very difficult parents of whom i've just walked out of an arguement from... This is gonna be my little moan post about them, wether its right or wrong to express how you feel about you parents or not...right now, my excuse is that is is my blog, i say what i wanna....

To start nothing was my aim... I made myself a cup of tea and some ramen... Like any day... and then mother brings up issues she has with me, my siblings, people etc... all of a sudden, i find myself being degraded down to  'you're useless'.. wether it be 'go save up for a house, go get a well paid job, stop being so unorganised in your room, noone knows how to do business in this family... O_O" why am i on the recieving end of this stick??!!!

Oriental families dont show love... they expect achievements to feed buy their love...  I said to her you can't expect us to run buisinesses and be all wealthy if as parents, u've never put any effort into teaching us yourselfs... My dads a terrible buisiness man... hes got the worst temper ever... When we had a chinese take away...I was too young to even think of running a buisiness of my owns let alone how i'd go about doing it!!! 

Now all of a sudden i get told i'm on top of the list to get married 1st out of all my siblings!!!! O_O LIKE WTFFFF!!!?!! and her reason for saying so.... because 'im useless!!' It's not even like she cares who, its that she sees me as some waste of space who doesn't erve her any use ( how i know... because i'm the one without some relationship like my 3 siblings who have bf's and gf's for ages!!) How could u even say 'i expect u to get married 1st' when u dont see anyone for me to marry, i'm the 3rd child and 2nd youngest ffs!! Like i'm unemployed right now and coz im not bringing in the money for 2 months, i'm useless to them... So depressing... I think i definately wanna move out and not have to put up with this bs... its so fustrating :(

and another thing... Religion... I always knew it would come back biting me where it hurts... So i've dedicated my life to God...and the parents have a problem with it..i get stick here and there for what i believe and it annoys them... But i stand firm to my beliefs... my mom thinks she can control me by saying she wants nothing to do with me if i dont marry someone of her preference, and i was like what does it matter to you, God gonna choose my partner and he knows best,loves us as equals regardless of age and race and size of bank account!!! So yea.. I walked off agreeing with the terms of hers... if i don't marry your preference, i wont expect a warm reception or your seats to be filled at my wedding!! ( I dont even know why shes always attacking me about getting married, i am no where near that situation in my lifeeeee!!!! oh gosh!!!!!!)

Theres always someone to blame when it comes to parents... it s never their fault because aparently the way they brought up up has absoloutely nothing to do with how we have turned out today...  i'm not saying it isnt our own faults aswell due to our life experiences..but what do you do when your parents are set in their ways...

My only solution.. Pray for them...

I'm sorry for ranting on about my folks... I love them really...they just make it very hard to stay calm when they attack me with insults and blame... and wheni have no sibling back-up to try push my aruguement back in chinese and vietnamese to make sense!! (because they were just too cool to live in a country for almost 30 years and not learn the language!!!)

END!!