He's on my side :)

God is on my side i swear!! I thought i was in so much debt because of recent events but its amazing that i'm not!! I thought i owed my parents £400 who gave that money to pay for the excess on my car crash but they told me they gave it to me, i don't owe them!! :D woww!! I did not expect that sort of generousity after the way i felt about them after the crash... remember i ran away from home simply because i resented them for the things they said to me but really.. they actually love me alot!! :) I got scared my family weren't people i could turn to but i was quite wrong... We're not one of those sort of families :) :) :)

And another miracle!!! I got a letter couple of months ago saying i owed almost £500 to the gov for underpaid taxes which made me stressed and confused... but i got another letter this month saying i only owe £1.80 instead!! :O like OMG!!! I just so confused but i know its God's grace over me that made this happen... I'm SOOOO greatful!! :)

you are me and i am you...

I'm not just greatful for finding Love in God... I am no longer lost nor do i feel my life is empty... What i share here are my mind notes... I've been through the highs and the lows with all of you because you are me and i am you... we are all apart of one... Sounds weird or complicated?? lol, i'm not gonna try to explain that statement right now but it is oh so true!! :)

I don't know the reasons why anything or everything happens in this world.. only God knows... but because i don't know, i can only do my part in helping the good of others through myself first... Gandi famous said " Be the change you want to see in the world" and before i used to see that as just setting an example of Love and light for others to see and feel... but in actualalty (is that a word?!), it means so much more than just that!! My mind has just been blown by the new grace and inspiration that has come into my life recently... I've got so much to share but as it stands... It's down to the individual to come seek for what i have found first... and that isn't in reference to just finding God.. It is... so much more than that... Trust that in me.. everyone i have ever known or come across is going to quietly experience..gifts...

Don't think about what i just said, just read and accept and quietly become inspired... I was... :)

I Love You..

I'm Sorry..

Please Forgive me..

I Thank You..

I really love the person i have grown into over the years...This is why i stress that its possible in everyone... Don't try to define who you are or what you put 1st in your life etc... We are our own biggest examples of changes within ourselves... Even if your life experiences have clouded you be be a limited version of yourself...Take the good lessons in life and clean/clear the bad ones so that they don't hold you back... When you feel a void or experience loneliness...don't let it eat you up like that... we all have so much more to live for... whether you are conscious of why you feel like that or not...don't make it your identity...i think you have the capacity in you to love the whole world :) so start with yourself ^___^

You can be moulded into a beautiful person from life but still have flaws (we are human after all!) but when you become conscious of these flaws..maybe thats when the road less travelled opens up for you... If you are open to it...  take that journey...

And if all you heard was blah blah blah looool, you aint ready for the snow to melt and the spring to bloom ;)

Love Snow xoxox

That wall!! <3

Remember that wall I was talking about that makes me itch to take photos of my own? Well here's a preview of it... Hopefully It'll inspire u all to make your own collection aswell!! :) I feel like doing a mini version using my polaroid pogo printer in sepia.. Whatchu think? Well I'm so busy this week to go explore but I'll roam around one night after work since I'm in the city anyways :p happy snapping guys and dolliezzz!! Xxx

Old photos

I was just cleaning out my draws of olddd papers and throwing out stuff for my spring clean... I found some really old photos of me and my friends!! I didn't wear any make up back then, now look at me?!!! Must be years of insecurities and media moulding me into that girl that neeeeds make up!! O_o its true... Do these pic even look like the same person?!!

Sunset in LDN..

Look at this beautiful sky in London I took a picture of today!! Even though it isn't warm and it's still winter... There was just something magical about the sky that I wanted to capture... Again...was taken on a camera phone...I gotta start carrying that cannon around..u never know when you'd find an awesome picture moment! ^_^ xxx

Galavanting around LDN randomly!

Recognise this building?? Oh its so beautiful when its all lit up and pretty!!! St Pauls cathedral babyyy!! :D unfortunately I did not bring my dslr that night but I'ma do this againn and take some awesome pictures!!! :D 

I've been really inspired by this wall of photos around london at my new work place and everytime I look at it (its like in my face!), I itch to go and explore the streets of london and make my own collection!! I'm not gonna fill this blog up with those photos tho, maybe a few...I have a separate photography blog I'll work on..I still needa upload the awesome pictures I took in Prague and show u guys!! :D only reason for the delay is because my stupid macbook won't recognise the camera whenever I plug it in so I need a pc to upload them O_o... 

But yea isn't this view stunning?!! It was taken on my blackberry so the quality isn't great..but yea...I'm so excited to go out and snap away!! :D :D :D

Life drawing

I'm learning how to draw again... Its true that you'll always know how to once you learn but you won't get any better if you stop practising.. Today was fun..just a room full of people who want to draw... The process is definitely more interesting than the outcome...

We do some 10min sketches, quick 2-3min drawings, couple of 15min sketches and then 35mins for the final pose... This was my 35min sketch... When I was doing my 15min sketches I kept thinking too much about how I wanted to draw like...I liked certain peoples styles and wanted to try it out...but it wasn't comfortable to me, it made me get all my proportions wrong because I was just drawing with my brain and not what came naturally...

her right leg is not crumpled ok!! Alot of it was covered by the cloththat i did not make very clearly.. and i may have used too harsh line for the shadows around that leg..it actually looks retarded O_o

I tend to use quite confident lines and strokes whiles I wanted a softer touch that was slow and more detailed like my friends style... Ayyy that didn't work, this was my natural style of drawing... I guess I can just keep on working on it :)

Tears are words that need to be written...

"Words are tears that have been written down. Tears are words that need to be shed. Without them, joy loses all its brilliance and sadness has no end. Thank you, then, for your tears."

Paulo Coelho

One of my favourite writers. This is a quote from his blog i read today.. I love this man!!

Mama missed u!

I remember the whole crash like it was yesterday... The impact of the collision sent my car spinning 360 degrees..all the air bags exploded out and the car was filled with smoke and dust from within..I had no Idea what just happened because it happened so fast...I remember for about 5 seconds the bright light coming towards me and after it all happened..I remember my hearing going and my vision was all black..I couldn't see or hear anything for about 10minutes..I kinda thought I was dying... And eventually a police officer approached me and got us out... Such haunting memories... 

I remember when I finally got my sight and hearing back to some level, I was so devastated at the state of my car... My baby was so badly damaged I didn't even think of my own injuries... I was pulled to the side of the road to compose myself of the shock..I took a picture then and sent it to the people I loved assuring them that I'm ok... And to think...the reason why I was driving that day was to head towards a homeless shelter and make christmas happen for them... I felt so bad that I never made it and instead, wasted so much time and money because of this crash..

It's a miracle we survived such a collision I suppose.. The memories still make me sad.. But hey...this saga is almost over... I got my baby back..she looks as if she's brand new again..all I have to pray for now is the judges verdict on who's fault it was...the speeding at a zebra crossing uninsured foreign driver or the young female driver coming into his lane who officer stereotyping thinks may have been distracted by alcohol or my mobile.. O_o ahhh I'm so sadden by all this drama in my life...I just pray for it to go back to smooth sailings... 

I for one learnt a lot from the past few months...and its so weird... I had to lose everything- money, career, job, family, friends, love, even my faith in God when I felt betrayed by the church congregation (I was bitter and just felt overwhelmed with sadness)...to finally let go of all the material stuff and be content within myself...content with nothing... And slowly...I am picking back up the pieces in my life with a new attitude towards the world... :) 

But totallllly going off the subject like usual... Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I got my baby Paris back... Mama will look after you better than before!!! :p (I don't have a pet or a child ok, gimme my moment with my car lol!! >_<")

Love Jeniniooo xoxo

Jumpin bk into my Onsies!!

The disadvantage of owning one of these is that when its so cold like it is now, you just never wanna take it off!! >_< I so jealous that my sisters have heaters in their rooms..my rooms the only one that got wood flooring too >___< and im soo colddd!! :( Going to layer up and jump in to my onsie and like uno... hybernate... :p Hope u like the picture editing lol...I rather not to get asked to take this awesome photo down because they don't wanna be seen in a onesies :p I'm sure u can tell which one is me though! :p ( i look extra short because that one piece i tried on was so big for me!!)

Don't we look like power rangers or teletubbies?!! :D Love it!!

Heart felt condolences...

No words... Just Prayers... R.I.P Whitney...

Keep moving forward

"Don't look backwards for very long...
We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious... And curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.." W.Disney

"Psychology= Curiosity :)" C.W

"Failure isn't always a bad thing...it allows us to keep moulding ourselves and look to success... Curiosity helps me make mistakes that eventually lead to the right decisions..." Jeniniooo :)
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AFK...

Hakuna Matata

Snow

I love it when it snows...I had a night time snow fight with a few friends! My aiming is getting better! :D

When it used to snow I'd just get all kiddy again and wanna play outside... I remember building countless snow men and women...me n my bro built a snow lady wid a huge booty!! Lool!!

I love how the snow brightens up the night...like it doesn't even feel like its night time because the sky is so white... And so bright!! I should be happy uno...but still... When the clouds fill up with snowflakes... This weather fills me up with memories of a storm that i wish never happened... I pray that the weight of it all melts away...

I also pray for all my Londoners safety in these conditions...it was not fun driving with it being so slippery and dangerous... Maybe in a open space for them wheel spins and drifting ops...but people walk n drive safe!! My bestie n her fiance got into a car accident today :( :( :( I really hate for the people I love to get hurt from such pure and beautiful weather.. Just go out n play oki?? Take care guyz and dolliez!!

Love Snow xoxo

Looking for Love..

I saw this book in my friends house called ' Information is Beautiful' and this page caught my eye!! What women and Men want all merged into one... Its basically text taken from what people have written on their profile descriptions.. Interesting huh... I never wrote any of this stuff when I had an online dating profile... I just wrote about myself and checked the boxes of what I did n didn't want...not that it even made a difference, I had all sorts of freaks of nature trying to talk to me O_o.

Lol there's this one line I read on this book that made me laughhhhhh!! Its says "a redneck who can handle me, I'm a wild one, and full of life!" O_o freaky!!!

Ahahahhahahhahaaaa!!!

Hey guyz and dolliez! Just chillin with my niece and we just watched this video from bubz and felt to share it because she just cracked me upp and made me laughhhhhhh!!!! Shes one of my favourite youtubers!! Go subscribe if you like her too!!

 My favourite moments!!

'Bitch! u tryna say i'm fat!!'

and when her friends hide in the corner from the bully and yells out ' I'LL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU BUDDY!!' 

stretching excerises for 40 mins before the fight against the bully!! xD

i was in stitches when she did the kung fu moves ' overwhelm the enemy with your awesome kung fu..'  THE FISH!!! looooooolll!!! I love her comedy channel because she takes alot of her inspiration from Stephen Chow and he is my favourite chinese actor and movie director... come on, shaolin soccor and kung fu hustle were genius!!

Look if you don't get anything i just said, just watch the dayum video and u'll get it!! :p sharing is caring!! :D

Enjoy!!
love Snow xoxoxox

Personalities in God...

"There are no real personalities anywhere else. Until you have given up your self to Him you will not have a real self. Sameness is to be found most among the most "natural" men, not among those who surrender to Christ. How monotonously alike all the great tyrants and conquerors have been: how gloriously different are the saints.


But there must be a real giving up of the self. You must throw it away "blindly" so to speak. Christ will indeed give you a real personality: but you must not go to Him for the sake of that. As long as your own personality is what you are bothering about you are not going to Him at all. The very first step is to try to forget about the self altogether. Your real, new self (which is Christ's and also yours, and yours just because it is His) will not come as long as you are looking for it. It will come when you are looking for Him.


Does that sound strange? The same principle holds, you know, for more everyday matters. Even in social life, you will never make a good impression on other people until you stop thinking about what sort of impression you are making. Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.


The principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up yourself, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favorites wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will ever be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ, and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in." C.S Lewis